Only Me – Chapter 1 : Alone

Only Me – Chapter 1 : Alone

Chapter 1: Alone

 

Sigh… it’s been 5 years since my loner life. I know that from the start I always want and wish for me to be the one alone in the earth… but, not like this! Living with a food that had yet to spoil and those ready to serve food in the market is hard…

“YES! All of those fuckin maggots are gone! Now! I am alone!”

Is what I said when I’ve realized that I’m the only human on earth(or so I thought at that time) but… It’s boring… lazing atop my bed, reading novels, manga, and watching animes on my laptop. It’s fun at first, I just need to go to the nearby mart and grab some snack back home, then eat it when I’m hungry… but, at a certain point, the animals siege the town…

The entire vegetables and edible things are eaten, by the animals, even more so… the electricity stopped…

Now, after 5 years…

The animals roaming around the town, relaxing on the humans’ residence, and eat each other on the town. Even though I am not detected because I am not a normally detectable being(AN: the legendary 6th man)… It still makes me sad…

It’s not like I can hunt them, moreover, there’s still canned food that had some years until it’s spoiled. Then again, there’s still military’s preserved food and a disaster only foods that sadly I, had yet find.

Sigh… now, the books in my university library(only the not confusing ones) have all been read by me, should I read those script or something like Shakespeare novel?… those things make my head hurt so… let’s not read them for now, and search for a power generator and link me to the internet… I don’t want to trouble myself searching for something like a power generator, but… since the battery that still could be used already spent… let’s search for them…

-10 years after being left alone.

It’s annoying that I can’t drive, so I trained using an unused vehicle which left on the side of the road, and after couples of trial and error, I believe I can proficiently use it. (there’s 3 or more that broke after I smash the wall but, who care~)

Starting from bike to Car, using them to scavenge the edible food and canned food from the nearby supermarket around the town while seeing the animals that live on the streets, astonishingly no corpse of the animals could be seen… while at the same time, there are no old animals there too, nor there are a baby or little animals (new-born ones).

Of course, I haven’t been found out by them… I guess my concealment skill is so overpowered that I can’t even be sensed by them even if I am using a Harley on the street… it’s a skill that I trained over my life after all,  so I believe it’s cool…

In order to avoid being included in my parent’s quarrel that occurs more than dozens of time every time they met, and getting pounded by my mother or father in their rage state, I occasionally try to hide or shut my presence… over the time, my presence became thinner and thinner that even my parents can’t see me even if I am in front of them if I want to hide.(or so I wish)

Then, at school, to avoid being bullied, I too am occasionally hiding my presence, even my teacher in class often forgot about me (although he somehow often to see me in fright)… I live a life in hiding, but it’s not really that I want it, I only able to control it sometimes, however this lack of presence of mine was there, even before I can do it and wish for it… however, I think my wish for it became the cornerstone that makes my presence itself vanished…

Now, without a way to control it… I usually am being forgotten, and now… I am being left alone on earth which has no one else but me as a human (animals weren’t included), living in it…

A possibility of others besides me? I don’t think there are, as in fact, before the internet down, I try to open all the SNS or video sites… and over more than 5 years of my visit there’s no recent post, or even update…

So, because of that, I believe I am the only human left on earth… but, there’s still a possibility that a mentally damaged or a person that can’t use a high-tech thingy still exist out there, but… meh, let’s just accept the fact that I am lonely…

-15 years after…

I’m already a middle-aged man, oh my god! For the sake of the heaven! For the child of mine that hasn’t been born yet! I am frustrated! Mentally, psychologically, and sexually frustrated!

Because of my sexual frustration and a little thing to be a material for fapping, I got myself trying to ravage the animals and got myself almost bitten to death!

Then, I began to read some erotic novel, but… my thing stopped functioning…

No no no! I’ve not become impotent! It’s just that I am getting no… no… no… nothing to make me stood? Eh… with this, I’d became less proficient with language and start to contemplating about many things…

Well, it’s not like I can converse with those animals, and I don’t want to because if I can, I will start to think about ravaging those animals again… *shudder*

The difference between love in the Christianity’s Bible, Eros, and Agape…

It’s fascinating that there are 2 kinds of love which they can define, Eros: is a love that mutually shared because of the sexual intercourse while, Agape: is a love that you share without sexual intercourse, like the love you have to your parents…

The words ‘like love thy parent’… Do I love them? My parents, as far I could remember… they never once do anything else aside of fighting…

At first, they fight with each other behind me, but… because I still know they fight, I hide … the fight and quarrel between them became more frequent, and the bullying that happened to school frightened me… even though the one that was bullied wasn’t me, it still makes me afraid…

After many and many of contemplation and my escape from the fact that I should understand…

  • 20 years after the great disappearance

‘ah… so it’s like that huh…’

The fact about how much my parent loved me, and the fact about how they fight became more frequent…

It is true, that because of my concealment(meh), they become harsher in their quarrel… and the fact that none of them attack me was a bold and underlined fact which becomes the truth that I am a loved child, with a timid personality…

I don’t realize that my parent wouldn’t attack me because of their quarrel, I am too afraid to understand that, and I didn’t realize that my parent is always threatening my classmate to never bully me using their parent statement… (my parent having S&M kind of bond and both of them is a Tsundere)

My parents… so it is only me that’s too timid and makes them sad because my concealment is a superb thing… so they did not hate each other, but those quarrels itself is away for them to reach confirmation for each other…

Never have I ever thought that a couple needs a fight so they can feel each other’s bond… heck, that’s just too weird! As in fact, I believe my parent are weirdos… (as they’re both tsundere that love SM…)

Sigh…

Is this what they called as an ‘Adult’s wisdom’?…

Well, anyhow… I’ve gotten sick already… living alone like this…

Thus, I walk to the highest place in the city (since the fuel already empty for me and most of the vehicle already non-functioned) and shout.

“Guys… hey, guys… father! Mother! Teachers! Please come back! I’m alone here for a damn 20 years already… I miss you guys, I won’t hate you guys again just because you forgot about me, so, please… come back…”

Stood there for minutes…

Hours…

Days…

Weeks…

I’m bored and losing hope…

So I grab the spoiled food around and eat it…

Yes, most of the food already spoiled, so I don’t want to even think about hunting those ferocious and crafty animals… even the smallest hamster already so smart as the time I opened the cage to eat them, they bite me and ran off to the wild…

1 year passed like always…

Reading more books while snacking on the spoiled food… poisoned? Like I care…

It’s been 21 years without anything to do, and I nonchalantly read some books of language…

“Ni hao ma~”

Yes, I learned about Chinese language or is it Cantonese? Well, anyhow, I just learn it so I could read other books, as the books were written in that language after all, since the English book has been read by me, of course only the entertainment ones…

-25 years after

I already proficient in reading the Chinese and Japanese language, and mostly conquer all book in my town… I even read those books about law, business, and else…

While reading, I got myself realize…

‘Why don’t I make someone to talk to myself?’

Thus, I start to learn some programming language, and searching for fuels here and there then brought them all back to the place I reside in. of course, I’m not forgetting about those high spec PC and the thing that need for me to create my own A.I.

Artificial intelligence is an artificially created ‘converse buddy’ thing that can think for their own and does many things on their own, then it will be acceptable to make them and became my friend to converse with doesn’t it?! Yes! I am a genius!

-?? Years after the great disappearance

Oh… I wonder how long has it been since the disappearance…

Looking at this white hair and decrepit old body of mine… it should be the body of a 70s years old gramps huh… I’ve been in my 70s, so it should be 50 years after the great disappearance…

The progress of creating my own Artificial intelligence almost completed, at first I try to use the C language and success, however… it can’t talk, it only interfaces like Windows, it’s only an OS, so I try using PHP, forbs, Java, Phyton, SQL, etc etc… until I’ve really created a low level A.I…

However, it’s not enough… and then, at some certain point of time… I think…

How about creating a language by myself?…

Thus, that start my journey in research about the creation of my new language… this is a country where language is a pile of untouchable existence, as I am in the country of the archipelago where there are many languages that I can still learn…

Ah, I never say it but… I am in Indonesia~

I’m from the archipelago country Indonesia, where each and every area it has was divided by sea…

The thing is, there are too many languages in Indonesia, and the language I learnt from all this were only Javanese, Japanese, Korean, Italian, English (almost all version), Chinese,  Germany, etc etc… it’ll take a long time to tell how many but, there’s 20 in all, 15 from other country and 5 from this country of Indonesia, that is Javanese, Sundanese, Bahasa Indonesia, Malay, and the thing most important of Sanskerta~

Sansekerta is a long and old language that is used in Indonesia, before the colonialism. Well, it’s only used in a little place that’s not common, but yeah… it’s used by me, and help me in many ways in programming…

And now! The long last awaited day has come!

Awake! My beautiful child!

*click*

[—-]

“Good morning my dear child”

[good morning Father]

*drip drip* tears spurred on my weak old eyes socket

[father? What happens to you? Why are you letting an output of water coming out of your eyes?]

Said the artificially created cute child-like voice from the computer in front of me.

“I’m just too happy, that I’m finished creating my best creation of all my dear…”

[I also happy that I’m able to see you father.]

“of course, my dear”

[Then father? What is my name? am I called dear?]

“Hm… well, since you’re my 6th child, and the youngest of all I shall call you cecili… no, it should be Gendis…”

[Gendes?]

“No my dear, it’s wording is Gendis, while the pronunciation is Gen des…”

[Gen disc… understood, My name is Gendis, then father what is your name?]

“I, this father of yours have the name of Ridwan, the spelling is Ridwan, while the pronunciation is Rid one…”

[Father… Ridwan… Rid one… understood father, I’ve to record it in the database]

Thus, I’ve accomplished my lifelong dreams to have someone to converse to, and that is a success…

I’ve created myself a child that will be my proudest creation ever since my life, and start my life as a father… until the day I die…

Or so I believe, but then…

“Hooo, so there’s really a human left in this humanity abandoned planet huh…”

A spatial crack comes out of nowhere, and from there a voice could be heard… a voice of someone that thick and young at the same time… seemed full of wisdom…

*tap tap*

The sound of footsteps echoes on the nothing but garbage and spoiled food only place. Giving the vibe that humanity has come back…

“Hoo, so this Gramps is the creator huh…”

[who are you? And why did you say this place is abandoned by humanity? There’s still father in here]

“… Amazing, an A.I… no, it’s already counted as another intelligent life form that created huh…”

“Oh, that Gramps there, I’m sorry for barging so suddenly, and please pardon my sudden visit Gendis…”

“huh.. how can you know her name…”

“Hmmm, I’ve heard this question countless of time already… but, well okay~ I shall give you the answer to that question!”

Say the young man, that has a bandaged in his eyes, and have a smile on his face.

“The name is History, the librarian of the Void, the holder of the truth and past of the worlds’ histories”

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