The bad ending of an Otome game MTL - Chapter (86)
Episode 86
Even if I accepted Casio’s proposal and came back, I thought I could do it well.
I thought I would be able to stand it even if I was tormented by the gossip and the eyes of people in the social world. ‘Cause I ain’t got nothing to lose
it was ok I could see that man dancing with Elodie, and I could casually watch Elodie’s every move instead of him becoming a concern for people.
But sometimes when I saw that man, it seemed that the jingling inferiority I had toward him crawled out of Ophelia’s grave and grabbed my ankle.
I have nothing, nothing but evil.
It was like a skinny child looking up at me with wide eyes, who had run away to the field behind Ophelia’s arms and legs with a strong spirit.
Would it have been different if we hadn’t met in this way? Would it have been different if I wasn’t ‘Emilia’? Home is meaningless.
It was so a long time ago. If I greedy for that man more, I thought I would die and go crazy. It seemed that I would hate him rather than love him.
So I killed the young me. Hatred, poison, anger, and feelings of inferiority were all torn apart and thrown into the pit of his heart.
After the boy died, I thought the pit was empty. Even if you throw something, only an echo-like sound will come back.
But it was an illusion. The pit was never empty.
The young me, who was like an anglerfish, who was on the verge of starving to death, was resurrected, and my eyes were wide open like a demon.
“I am the one who knows that better than anyone.”
‘Cause every time I see you I get cowardly It makes me miserable every time I realize myself like that.
I’d rather not have been this miserable if Ophelia and you were kind lovers who can’t live with each other. I would have been able to scrape away greed and regret like a rake and feel refreshed.
“Even if Ophelia is dead, you are still precious to me.”
“…….”
I laughed bitterly. If I couldn’t be the main character anyway, if I couldn’t stop Ophelia’s death, it would have been faster to stop my greed.
So, the source of the inferiority complex was very clear. I wanted to be loved by someone more than Ophelia.
When I was a child who wanted it, even if I killed it, it did not disappear. Even though I knew there could never be such a person.
Sometimes I felt pathetic, hateful, and pitiful for myself.
“Emile…….”
“Sir Laertes is important to me too.”
The man’s eyes widened.
“Not as much as that kid, but not.”
A look of embarrassment crept across Laertis Hope’s face.
And Ophelia was such a foolish comrade of mine.
He didn’t understand my inferiority complex, and I was struck by his indifference.
But if it wasn’t for those shortcomings, I wouldn’t have stayed with him, and he wouldn’t have been able to change the fate of being alone in the original game.
We were broken people in one place or another.
Laertes Hope was my childhood ideal and idol.
So, it was sinful to look back on my own shortcomings more.
Loving someone is like a knife.
He bled and shed so much that he thought he had calluses in his heart, but it seemed that his heart was hardly being trained.
I was afraid that if I was exposed to the deepest part of my heart, they would despise me.
Because he’s a friendly person, I think he’ll just feel sorry for him, but if he gets sympathy from him, he’ll really want to die.
“So, I don’t want to have a deep relationship with the Marquis of Windrose, where Lady Elodie is staying.”
There was someone who told me to be happy even in such a cowardly country. That was it.
I read her letter so much that I memorized it.
I was going to follow her will as far as I could. Even if I don’t know about dating, I was thinking of wearing pretty clothes, eating a lot of delicious food, and going out on an outing without wanting to. So…….
“Lord Laertes, I sincerely thank you for your generosity. I will accept the necklace you gave me today to commemorate the good old days of the past.”
I laughed. Now that I can afford it, I can genuinely smile. The man seemed to be somehow surprised or embarrassed. It wasn’t like Lord Laertes in the world, so that was a bit unexpected.
“Emilia, I…….”
“It’s because I’m narrow-minded and naive. There’s nothing to complain about, and I’m not going to interfere. So this is purely self-satisfaction.”
“Is it because of Lady Elodie?”
The man’s voice was a little urgent. It also sounded irritating.
I saw the man’s face. Contorted lips as if in embarrassment. If you answered yes, it would sound very narrow-minded.
“Yes.”
“…….”
how about He would have liked to be treated so rudely because of him.
Anyway, I know that I’m a naive and mean person. I also didn’t want to look like that in front of that man.
But if you try to inflate and exaggerate yourself, the misery remains.
If it wasn’t for him anyway, I would have been grinding coffee beans all day and cleaning the dusty corner of the cafe.
“Then, maybe…… ”
“I have no desire to blatantly crawl into the Marquis of Windrose by coming here and kicking out Lady Elodie. I wouldn’t even do it because of me in the first place, but what’s wrong with that girl, honestly. It’s too ironic for me to say, though.”
It’s self-defeating. It’s funny. I know. But maybe I can be selfish at least. Because other people are on her side.
There’s no way that sweet Laertes Hope could offer to drive out that little girl who has nowhere else to go as much as I do. In the first place, it was none other than the will of the marquise that made her stay as a marquise.
“Did nothing matter to you, except for Ophelia?”
“…….”
An unexpected question came back to me as I turned my gaze to think that the conversation was about to end. It was a voice that sounded like it was hurt for some reason.
Hopefully it can be How many men looked to death on the day that ‘that’ Ophelia was favored?
Laertes was a little different in his position and position, but even though he grew up like a real brother and sister, there was a sense of inevitability between Laertes and I. Even so, he was a kind man who didn’t know what he was going through, so are you going to be sad? It could be.
Was it enough to think like a bloodless sister? Even the dog I was raising is concerned about when it gives birth to a pup, but the words that disappear without a word, like a night out, are reunited and exchanges are standing still.
Or, it might be resentful. There’s no way Ophelia’s vacancy could have been small, and I left too.
At least because of Elodie’s existence, the marquise is probably in a situation where he is gaining strength in his own way. Now that I’m an outsider, it’s not right for me to get angry blindly at the name of a dead person.
“…… Yes. I did.”
The purple eyes trembled faintly. I was a little surprised that the nursery rhyme was so clear.
“…… So, you left?”
His voice was terribly low. My answer was one.
“Yes.”
“…….”
As if suppressing her emotions, Laertes closed her eyes once and then opened them again. The swaying purple eyes sank a little.
“Then why did you come back?”
“…….”
I was speechless for a moment. Perhaps I sensed something in my nursery rhyme, Laertes came closer to me.
I always thought he was a cold-hearted man, but something like a blazing purple flame was tangled in his gaze.
“debut…… I’m going to play a tante.”
“You didn’t like Casio Brahmanduff? I have been to the store where you worked.”
“…….”
“Why did you come back after telling a plausible lie to your guests? I didn’t sell the store. Weren’t you thinking of going back?”
Originally there was Things are starting to grow and I’m only now thinking that it might be difficult, but… … .
I thought about how far I could go. Laertes is not someone to trust. If there is anyone who can see ‘Ophelia’ objectively, it is this man.
In terms of reliability, it cannot be compared to Casio. Just because he knew about Ophelia’s letter, he wasn’t the kind of man to take it away.
However, I wonder if there is any other reason why he has to make me debut by standing next to Casio. So I’m just thinking about whether or not I can reveal it.
“Didn’t you say you had something to do with the man?”
“…….”
“There’s no way you, who weren’t very interested in the social world, really wanted a debutant and came back.”
okay. Laertes Hope is no fool. How did I pretend to be in the royal palace, but one day, such a moment must have come. I finished my short deliberation.
“It’s what he wanted.”
“…… what?”
Laertes made a visibly surprised face.
“That kid, I wanted to debut. I found out about it a little late. So I came back.”
“…….”
Laertes’ face became complicated. Fortunately, the source was not asked.
“Casio Brahmanduff…….”
“We’re working together because of him, we don’t have any special feelings for each other.”
“…… Do you have any feelings for each other?”
It was a strange voice.
“Then, if he likes me, will he pour money into a cart, fill the room with dresses, and smile in front of others hahaha? You know the Laertes hardness well. It’s very clumsy. Even if you die, you won’t lose.”
“…….”
That Otome Game’s Bad End